2009-01-23 - 11:46 a.m.

I am supposed to tolerate her. I regretted every time I treated her like how she treated us at times. I told myself not to learn from her. Maybe there is just a limit and I might not be able to handle any further. Just like her.

Is it a genetic factor or an environmental factor? Does it work at the level of brain, the level of person or the level of group, or simply all three will affect just like how they talk about psychosocial stuff?

I definitely don't want to be like her. And neither do I want her to continue being like that. But who can save us other than ourselves?

11.54pm
I wanted to write this after I bathed, but dinner was great, news was amazing, followed by attractive turnout for Ghost Whisperer and as usual Friday night animation. So I delayed until now, to note down what I was thinking while bathing just now.

Just something to say first. It didn't make me feel very right about Jim getting into that dead Sam's body, and I didnt really understood what was the argument between Melinda and her friend. Then at the end, it was clear that her best friend didn't really believe in her about what she said at first, about those ghosts and now that Jim is in Sam's body, until later. But she found out the truth, and the touching patch up. And then, the second chance given to Jim, for his braveness to enter Sam's body irregardless of what might happen after which and for his love towards Melinda, is meant to be a gift for Melinda, who helped so many ghosts yet ended up with her beloved husband died and left her nothing. I didn't understand everything, like why she told the parents about that freedom thingy and stuff, but it ended sweetly for this episode.

Ok, so I was thinking about what a person I really am, as taught by Lao laoshi.

1)在我说话的时候，我希望别人尊重我听我说话，如果他们不听，我基本上会选择沉默、生闷气。算霸道吧。如果是亲人，他们问我刚才说什么之后，我会选择不说；除非当天我心情好。如果是朋友，我会说噢不用紧，或者我会重复我所说的；基本上不会生气。嗯，有时候也有人根本不理我说什么啦，哈哈。对于这样的情况，我就会沉默。

2)我喜欢别人对我说心事。嗯，不只心事，只要是朋友和我说话我基本上都很喜欢。算是鸡婆八卦吧。有时候听多了，可能可以知道不同人遇到类似事情的时候，反应是怎样，心情是怎样。然后我再从中想想我是不是我认为中的怪人。只是有个问题，就是，我可能听得不够专心，还是我活跃的脑细胞太少，又或者我脑细胞死得快换得慢，有些事情听了会忘记。裕雯最能作证。哈哈！而且那件事后好像有点严重化。唉。

Ok, this is to be continued. I need to sleep now or else I don't think I can wake up tomorrow for work. HAPPY BIRTHDAY Sarah! and good night everyone!

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